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Thursday, 19 November 2009

  • Iron Man University

    what i would like to know?
    why doesn't the government focus on making an Iron Man? can't we learn something from the movie Iron Man???? we should make universities where people TRAIN to be Iron Men.  how useful would that be???? how many people do you think would go to that university? it'd be like ....awesome. 

    okay i really have to write my paper. 

  • and with your love i'll never be alone

    about an hour ago i had my Hope Show audition :) even if i don't get in i thoroughly enjoyed singing "Far Longer Than Forever" in front of an audience, even if the audience was just four people.  it was the first time i've done anything musical in a while, and i was so nervous but afterwards i felt so much better, and happy that i finally got to perform :)

    here's the song i sang for my audition, only the female part.  i cracked when Odette sings "Derek" but other than that i think i did the same phrasing as liz callaway and had a nice tone :)


  • brought my computer to my class today

    i brought my computer to my class today--it was the first time ever.  the wireless internet actually worked, too, which defied my expectations.  i felt soooo....criminal, because i actually went on facebook to answer some of my wallposts and messages, and i wasn't actually taking down notes for astronomy, rather, i was working on a Writing paper i should have started last Monday and finished last Tuesday (this marks the first time i truly procrastinated on something since Poly....wow).  i was actually online as well, and a good number of my "buddies" were online.  i was kind of willing some of them to talk to me.  alas, nobody did, which was sad.  but i did get prompt replies back on my facebook.  :)

    i've got my first audition in a long time in about an hour and thirty-three minutes for the China Care Fund Hope Show.  i don't expect to get in, but the piece i'm performing is "Far Longer Than Forever" from the Swan Princess, something i've never been able to perform before.  because i'm not expecting to get in, i'm just doing this for the performance since i haven't been able to do anything musical in a long time.  even though i'm pretty sure nobody knows songs from the Swan Princess anymore, let alone a group of twenty-something year-olds from China, i chose that song because i'll probably never have a chance to perform it in front of an audience.  even if i do horribly, which i probably will since they sprang this audition on me on November 17, which was what....two days ago? i'll be thankful that i had the chance to perform it in front of people.  but as always, my musician nerves are acting up because no matter what i do, i can't psych myself out of being nervous.  i'm running on pepcid, pepto, and alleve right now....my insides are screaming with pain and they have been all day.  ah...the life of a musician, eh?

    then after that i get to work on that paper i procrastinated on.  it's just tomorrow.  tomorrow is the hurdle, and then i'm done.  no more nervousness about anything, and perhaps my insides will stop freaking out because i certainly don't feel or look healthy anymore.  problem!

    Up! has come out on DVD, which is very exciting.  i'm definitely gonna hop over to a DVD store this saturday and pick it up because it's kind of necessary for my happiness right now.  michael giacchino has done it again :)


Wednesday, 18 November 2009

  • giving it a chance?

    i'm going to try to get involved....i'm auditioning for the China Care Fund Hope Show, and i really, really hope i get in, but i'm a little worried because i haven't done anything musical in a really long time (like....since last june when i quit my flute lessons.  ever since then).  especially coming to BU (where they won't let me major in music comp...?), i haven't done anything musical, besides singing quietly in my room on those rare occasions both of my two roommates are gone. 

    and my goal for this week?
    go to all my classes, every day, no skippies.  EFFORT. 

    the stress of everything is making my hair fall out.  i just need to STOP complaining, ignore the unhappiness, and focus on the good things.  what happened to my optimism? all of it couldn't have disappeared....this is just work, it's not personal, it's business.  college, at least for me, isn't going to be about having the time of my life.  it's going to be about being successful.  i made huge mistakes in high school about grades, but now i know. 

    EFFORT. 

Monday, 16 November 2009

  • today is the first day since the end of september that i went to all my classes

    so today marks the first day i think in a long time i went to more than two classes....really bad student-ing i know, but it's hard to make yourself go to places where people treat you like you're stupid.  why would i willingly subject myself to that? going to all my classes was the hardest thing of my life, but now that i've done it again, i'm going to be able to start doing it more. 

    so i got a 68 on my midterm.  like.  a 68%.  even with a curve, that's still a 78%.  i'm still kind of in shock because it's like i do nothing BUT work and i get a 68? depressing.  i'm not going to be able to transfer with a 68%.  i emailed my professor about doing something to make sure my grade doesn't suffer but i don't think much is going to come out of that.  he's a good (...he's an okay) professor but he's really rigid about things so it makes me afraid to approach him for things.  he's like the middle-eastern guy who always delivers to my brownstone who always gives me the stink-eye because he doesn't know whether or not i'm the person he needs to deliver to when i'm sitting outside talking to my sister (i'm never the person he needs to deliver to....). 

    i watched the Forbidden Kingdom today for the first time.  my review? i give it a charitable 8/10.  it's good for people who just need to feel good.  jackie chan is so adorable as the drunken immortal and so is jet li as the monkey king.  they play off of each other really surprisingly well, and the presence of michael angarino as the token white guy actually detracts from the movie.  it makes allusions to other kung fu movies and aspects of kung fu movies alright, it's a very western-faux-asian movie...personally i think jet li's display of praying mantis kung fu is a worthy enough reason to watch it xD.  other people in the cast are bing bing li as the white-haired demoness (she's reallly pretty), collin chou as the jade warlord, and yifei liu as golden sparrow. 

    DVD cover


    jackie chan (drunken immortal)


    jet li (silent monk)


    jet li (monkey king)


    collin chou (jade warlord)


    yifei liu (golden sparrow)


    li bing bing (white-haired demoness)

Sunday, 15 November 2009

  • Waht the fuck? "To Write Glove on her Blubber" mocks TWLOHA

    the year after i left polytechnic (oh how i miss it so now that i'm in the shit pit of hell, poly is gold compared to this....), some kiddos started a "To Write Love on Her Arms" club, i suppose, and it became a big deal and they celebrated "To Write Love on Her Arms" day.  for those who don't know what TWLOHA is, it's a movement that, according to their website, originated on myspace.  its purpose is to help those who suffer from things like suicidal thoughts, depression, who self-mutilate.  it's a golden cause, i personally don't support it because i think the instinct to help someone who suffers from anything like this should be automatic and universal--that is, you don't have to support a cause in order to do it, so i suppose it has my "ghost" support, in that i don't actually give my allegiance to it, but i recommend that others do.  it's a touchy subject, really, but one thing's for certain.  there's no reason (ehe except mine) to not support it.

    however, of course this has to happen.  some students in high school, that i hear from sources "didn't necessarily go to poly," created this group for fun, called "To Write Glove on Her Blubber." Here is what is written on the Facebook Event page:

    "To Write Glove on Her Blubber is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for seals who are illiterate or overweight TWGOHB exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.
    To Write Glove On Her Blubber Day is a day where anyone can write the words glove on their arms, to support those seals who are fighting against bluberity and stupidity and those who are trying to recovering."

    they went on to encourage to post pictures of "glove written on your arms." mistake on their part, i suppose because their tagline wasn't "to write glove on her arms," it was a "to write glove on her BLUBBER."  so i'm assuming they made a psychological slip about how they're making fun of TWLOHA, but that's what they really meant.  to write glove on her blubber, that is. 

    now, i'm all for a parody or satire of something, making fun of things like, say, Twilight.  or Edward Cullen.  Miley Cyrus.  The Jonas Brothers.  the Droid commercials, Wanda Sykes, Kim Jeong-Il--whoever, whatever deserves it.  i'm ready to laugh just like the next person.  i'm all for the laughter and the fun.  so i'll admit, quite disingenuously without really buying it, that To Write Glove On Her Blubber is ..... "funny." i guess.  but when we start poking derisive fun at a valid cause that has done nothing except try to help people who really do need help, we cross the line.  an action this offensive would never have flown if my class was still at poly (i'm about to go all "back in my day" on their asses and i'm just three months out of the place...WOW).  how do i know this? because i informed three of my classmates about To Write Glove on Her Blubber.  these were the responses:
    1. "what dumbsh*ts decided to do that?? i just looked at the event.  and wow....sorry to say but i'm glad i'm out of poly." 
    2. "to write glove on her blubber made me vomit a little in my mouth....don't worry, i will naturally select against them."
    3. "if i'd still been on campus i woulda run train.  like....that's straight up offensive."

    there's something to be taken away from this....a very solid lesson upperclassmen need to learn.  WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF THE LOWERCLASSMEN, THEY RISE UP AND DO STUPID THINGS.  i'm very tempted to go back to poly, little old obsolete powerless me, and slam down these fools like the hand of God. 

    at the same time, i realize that different people have different ideas of where the line is.  how do we know when we're crossing the line and it's wrong to do what we just want to do.  even the people who created the event were surprised about how it had taken off.  but then i keep in mind that the three people i spoke to had very differing levels of how laid-back they were about life, and they all had pretty much the same answer.  To Write Glove on Her Blubber openly mocks To Write Love On Her Arms.  that's like....Eve from the Garden of Eden trying to make fun of the archangel Michael.  she's just so stupid compared to him. 

    To Write Glove On Her Blubber,
    here's a hint for survival:
    if you want to keep existing, i suggest you take a more productive course and make money that you ultimately give to TWLOHA, because you know that without TWLOHA you wouldn't even exist.  your existence is indebted to them...it just makes sense.

    at least i can take comfort in the pictures that have been popping up continuously on facebook ever since TWLOHA day....people genuinely supported it, even if they were involved in some way with To Write Glove on Her Blubber Day as well.  i'm ultimately glad that To Write Glove On Her Blubber didn't completely mess up To Write Love on Her Arms, but at the same time, i'm severely disappointed that it exists at all.  i'm not trying to make a huge stink about To Write Glove On Her Blubber, Polytechnic School, but i (we?) expect so much better of you, regardless of whether or not this "movement to help illiterate and overweight seals" originated at your campus (our campus? i'd like to think of it as "our" campus).  just in the future, please have better judgment--don't let this happen again. 


Friday, 13 November 2009

  • freedom of speech flies out the window when you tell me to calm down about this

    i don't understand why people think it's okay to be mean to my little brother.  granted he's kind of a loser, ugly, still has fat under his chin even though puberty has stretched him out slightly, has bad acne (like 99% of other teenagers), and all that.  but still.  i don't understand why people would willingly, determinedly, with conviction, be jerks to another person.  he never did anything to you bitches!

    i wish there was a way that i could smite all these people in one blow like the hand of God.  i wish there was some older guy who was my friend who could just happen to be in the general vicinity and he would protect my brother when people pick on him.  on facebook, i wish there were people who aren't pussies and aren't afraid of confrontation (over the internet no less where i unfortunately can't throw punches) when it's right, who would stand up for my brother...when someone calls him a loser, when someone says "GTFO" to him just because he piped up and said something, or took a side.  i wish someone would take his side when another person calls him a "piggy."  there is nothing kind or charitable or well-meant by this name-calling. 

    this is just wrong.  i'll admit, i'm horrible to my brother.  i'm probably the biggest contributor to his unstable emotional state, because i'm always poking at him and telling him not to be emo, to cut his hair, to stop playing his goddamn guitar and focus on his homework, telling him not to make the same stupid mistakes i did in the worst, most terrible, most insulting way possible.  but i'm his sister.  nobody else has the right to call him a piggy, to say he's a loser, to tell him to shut up just because he's who he is. 

    i'm definitely one of the meanest people i know.  i'm judgmental, i'm unkind, and i bash people behind their back, but i would never to their face tell them with the sole purpose of hurting them that they are inferior.  someone needs to take a stand.  and no one is allowed to tell me to calm down when i'm standing up for my brother.  the moment someone who isn't related to our family tells me to "chill out" because i'm getting angry at someone for jeering at my brother and saying he has no friends is the moment america becomes the stupidest place on Earth.  nobody has the right to tell me to chill out when i'm protecting my brother.  or sister for that matter. 

  • New Spin-Off Blog: The Table of No Shame

    the other day i was out to dinner with my friends, a few friends from LA, a rare occurence I know, and one of my friends said that we were "sitting at a table of no shame." what he meant was that we were at a table where we didn't have to care about how much we eat im front of each other. i'm jacking his phrase 'cause i like it.

    a few months ago i did a post on the message sent by the fact that popular Chinese female actresses are married to old, rich business men.  this got me to thinking about myself, and what i see happening in my future, and how my Chinese-ness plays into that.  sometimes i feel very Chinese--at other times i'm ashamed that i'm not Chinese enough.  there are little intricacies about the life of a Chinese girl, who was born in the United States, teenager, going to college.  Intricacies like .... will my parents try to set me up with a business mogul's son? when i'm pregnant will they do that weird thing where they slather herbs on your pregnant belly to make sure the baby comes out successful and awesome? what's it like being a chinese-american girl who can't speak either cantonese, shanghainese, or mandarin completely fluently? stuff like that. 

    a big part of chinese culture is family style eating.  i know, i know, other families do it, too, but it's always struck me as an Asian thing (kind of like giving a lei to your kid at their graduation.  my parents did it, i don't really know why...they just kind of did, and none of the white people did it...).  so i set up the Table of No Shame, a place where i could be as racist and as Chinese as i want, even maybe going overboard when i really want to.  why can't i be proud of who i am? why do i have to sink into the homogenous soup of Americanized Chinese girls? as much as i don't like offending people, sometimes i don't want to stand by and let your weirdness pass. 

    check it out,
    all i've got is an introduction with a disclaimer about how racist i am, but i promise i'll probably offend you at which point i will pull the culture card. disclaimer: please don't take any future opinions i post on The Table of No Shame personally....i'm just trying to find a place where i don't have to be any sort of politically correct.  i hope you know how it is....

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

  • grr

    i get annoyed when people refer to their dorms/college campuses as home. 
    by doing so they reveal how they don't know what home is and how insincere their affections are if they can emotional attach themselves so easily to a place they've been in for less than five years. 
    stupid idiots.

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